Witness to 3 miracles of life-change in less than a month! He has taken my breath, again! I have never seen this, with my own eyes, before! I have prayed numerous times for God to do a miraculous work to bring life-change. I have heard stories years after, but never experienced it while it was happening so drastically before me. I am humbled beyond belief as I have seen God's Holy Spirit break through years of pain and suffering into hearts that were hard, calloused, unresponsive, and stone cold; thought to never be penetrable, with loved ones devastated, lying in a pile of emotional debris, and having no hope of ever seeing any change or improvement.
Twice, it has been with grown men causing a tornado of destruction to all members of their families because of their own self-absorption, self-satisfaction, and self-righteousness. They were completely oblivious to the damage they have caused until, UNTIL, the Spirit removed the scales from their eyes. No, I do not understand the ways of my God, nor His timing for causing blinded eyes to suddenly see. But what I do know, what I have seen and heard is these men are each completely broken as they, for the first time in years beyond a decade for each of them, suddenly realize the pain and suffering they have caused those they truly love the most. Who was that man that did all that?...is the question that now plagues them, possibly, for the rest of their lives.
While the third miracle holds some differences, to be sure, and much has still to be written because of the horrific trauma buried from the past, for this little one so loved by God, the blessing of watching God do only what He can do is more than humbling and almost to the point of overwhelm. There are no words to describe it. Tears flow from my eyes, freely, as I am faced with seeing GOD IN THE FLESH living and moving in these three...transformed lives!
This race is far from over. The finish line has not been crossed, for any of the three or their loved ones. Much repair is still required and breaths are being held because of the great fear of their possible regress.
Can it be? Is this really true? Will this really last? Who is this person; I/we have never seen this side of him before? One cries uncontrollably and his shoulders quake up and down because of what he has done? He is genuinely remorseful for the intense pain and suffering he has caused me/us; one more deeply than an another. What will tomorrow be like? What does this mean for me? What is my responsibility, now? Do I dare let him back in? Do I dare to love him, again?
The answer I have shared with the wife and the ex-wife of the two men was...WAIT! Let God show you. And, "take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ". The rampage of thoughts that whirl around these ladies' minds is exhausting. Seek Him so He can give you the right response, whatever that is. They both want to be God's response to the father's of their children. Miracles, too! But it still hurts, like a burn, that seemly is never allowed to heal as the wounds are intentionally scraped over and over again, which ultimately leaves heavy scaring.
What will God ask them to do in response to these miracles of life-change they have been chosen to witness and experience? Will it hurt, again? For sure. But, only He knows how much and only He can give them what they need to respond His way...with His response.
I can't help but think how God's heart is scraped and scared by my own sin against Him...day after day. And yet, His love for me never waivers. I cannot comprehend this kind of love. My mind will not allow it. This, too, is a MIRACLE!
We do not serve a God who does not know and does not understand and does not empathize with our deepest needs. We serve a God who is intimately aware of each of our needs and He is the ONLY answer for each of them for each of us. He does not ask us to walk this road alone, instead He walks with us through the valley of the shadow of death. Strategically around us, He provides those we need to lock arms with and kneel down with, so we can all be...His response.
"The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. And we will be ready to punish every act of disobedience, once your obedience is complete." 2 Corinthians 10:4 - 6.
"Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need." Hebrew 4: 14 -16.